I made the mistake of telling other people about my decision to leave that thing alone for a while...They influenced my succumbing to temptation. Jerks. They sprinkled crack on me while I was down. But today. I stand.
In the mean time I'll read the Bible, haven't picked up the good book in a minute. I don't like church, the walls can be so stifling at times. (But when you pray, go to your inner room, close the door, and pray to your Father in secret-Matthew 6:6) On my own, I'll get to know a little bit more about ..The Leader of Souls, The Water of Life, The Door, The Way, The Father, The Advocate, he has many names (I saw a religious poster with all the names and made a mental note of them) but right now he's My Strength.
Here's a verse in Luke 11 that caught my eye a few weeks ago and as I scanned through my Bible again it's also mentioned in Matthew 13...
The return of the Unclean Spirit
24: "When an unclean spirit goes out of someone, it roams through arid regions searching for rest but, finding none, it says 'I shall return to my home from which I came.' 25 But upon returning, it finds it swept clean and put in order. 26 Then it goes and brings back seven other spirits more wicked than itself who move in and dwell there, and the last condition of that person is worse than the first."
My Interpretation of this and how this relates to me: whatever temptation I successfully resist the first time...will return in a more irresistable form. And even if I have the strength the resist it a SECOND time.. it will return stronger..more tempting until I give in. I can't count the times I've been in this situation.
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