I was talking to my friend about X-mas being overrated because it is. Ok. So much pressure it's like what if I had the audacity to show up at my home on Christmas day and while everybody is exchanging gifts I stand up and say something like "You know guys. Jesus is the reason for the season and that's why I didn't buy anybody anything." and sit down. One person would be like "You couldn't even buy a card?" and I'd say no, I couldn't. Now let's all bring out the Bible and read the first verses of Matthew. The part when Mary finally finds an inn to birth baby Jesus. My family would probably think, how cheap is she, and continue to exchange gifts.
I don't know my house. Every time I return the walls have change the furniture rearranged, new additions everywhere. The most confusion happens when I'm in the kitchen and I'm mindlessly searching in every draw for a fork. Ok found it. Now the plates, tricky, it could be on the top or the bottom. It's on the top, ok found it. Now the hard part is the cups. Ok..where the hell is the cup. Why can't the cup just be in a simple place...ok found the cup. I've never really lived here that long, we moved from my hometown to this place when I graduated so it's this place I've been visiting and getting to know little by little. It's like...and long distance relationship. You think you know the person...really well, but when you spend time together in person you learn new things like...wow, I didn't know you jerked your head so much when you talk. Wow...I didn't know that's where you kept the foil. I'll make note of it next time....or just forget it. Let's just break up and call it quits.Hey there's moments when I feel no so alone. I had a moment like that. When I realized I wasn't
insane. Yes! It's not something you can explain. It's like a joke only you and God are in on. But god is invisible so it looks like your laughing by yourself, but then this person comes along and is like..."Oh you realized that too!" and you're like "get out of here I thought I was the only one you knew about that!" and so you discuss it a little further and share feelings about how lonely you felt for so long...and your days are little bit brighter. It's like a stranger offering you candy but it's not poisonous and he's not trying to lure you anywhere.
